Fleeting Thoughts

Good morning,

I hope this find you well. 

Over the past few weeks I have been busy working on a video to talk a bit about Holistication and to show myself to the LinkedIn world. 

While I would like to be employed and earn money, I feel uncomfortable advertising myself and I don't really like online social networks. I prefer face to face social interaction and let my actions talk for themselves. I think we can agree, that this creates a dilemma, especially now during Corona.

Times are always changing. Now technology makes possible, what for many of us was inconceivable, but we maybe dreamt of. I remember seeing a children's TV show ( I was 9 or 10 years old) where people were talking to each other via Video, and I thought, WOW!! that would be SOOO cool! Some people had come up with those fictional ideas and they became reality. The power of thought and imagination... I also dreamt of a walky-talky for the games we played in our neighbourhood. I never got one, as they were far too expensive. Today my mobile comes with me wherever I go. 

Anyway, back to the present. For many, sitting at home alone (or in the company of others), detached from the rest of the world is scary and overwhelming. Thank God, the internet and all the video conferencing tools we can use, help us to stay connected socially while being separated physically. But. There is always a but. I would like to make a distinction between being alone and feeling alone or lonely. 

Here's my experience, for all it's worth: There was a time, when I felt alone and lonely no matter how many people were in the same room with me. I suffered from the feeling of being an outsider. I suffered, because I wouldn't accept the circumstances or myself. Why not? Because I was scared and so I ran. I won't go into details, I think we all know how to run from others, ourselves and our feelings.
But, as they say, whatever you run away from will bite you in the butt. 
​And so the time came, when I stopped running and experienced complete loneliness. It was so utterly overwhelming and absolute that I couldn't but surrender.

Somehow I came to the conclusion that we all live in our own bubbles. We need each other, we can see, hear, touch each other, we can come closer through love and create a distance through fear. But whatever we do, however we feel, the bubbles won't burst. 

You have your bubble and I have mine. It is up to each of us, if or how we want to fill them. I always have a choice. I didn't always know that. I learned that. I also learned to fill my bubble and to be content in it. 

I am accepting of the current situation and make the most of it. I learn how to make and edit videos. I had to back-up my computer and install a new software. I am overcoming my fear and reluctance of interacting online. Currently social distancing is the least of my problems, I am meeting friends from all over the world and am much more active, so that I need to take a  day off-line from time to time. 
I learn to post a video on LinkedIn, which is like throwing a message-in-a-bottle into the ocean. I have no idea, if and when anybody will ever see it.  I will ask for help on how to through the bottle with a bit more focus.

Looking at the world through my bubble, I am full of hope. I am doing my part, and that's all I can do. I really hope you are well and happy. If not, remember: you can be.

Thanks for reading, have a good day and stay healthy!

Yours, 

Pia